Aujord hui

I have recently come to terms with the way I used to act, and the way I used to view things.
I understand why I did things in my past, not that they were completely irrational, and I still feel that some of the things I did and said are easily justified.
One of those things was to isolate myself from someone who was once a very good friend of mine, and I went about that the wrong way. A way in which hurt that friend deeply, and I did not realize it until we talked about this lapse in our friendship today. I did have a reason to isolate myself, though the way of going about it was irrational, and was very self-centered, and, at that time, I didn't care how my friend felt. Now realizing how it felt for her and how I would react if I felt that way and if a dear friend of mine did that to me.
However, though I do still see our time apart as necessary, if we did not have that hiatus in our friendship, I feel like things would be just as unhealthy and hurtful as they were before. Now that we are older, I think that this will be a good friendship, rather than how upsetting at times it was before, and now we can make up for lost time without the fear of being bitches to one another.